Here is part two of my journey to California. My roommates and I attended a beauty session on the beach hosted by Christina and Fran. They taught us how to pose our subjects elegantly and in ways that would make them feel beautiful, instead of uncomfortable. I for one, am super uncomfortable in front of the camera. I know right! whaaaat? a photographer uncomfortable in front of the camera? I am! Usually, until California, when somebody would try to take my picture I’d run, or hide. Its an uncomfortable place for me to be. I’m usually behind the camera, and being in front means I have no control over how I look. I’m constantly worried about things. Everything! How does my hair look? How is my outfit? Where should my arm go? These are normal worries, normal stressors. As photographers, its our job to make our clients feel comfortable, and natural, and most of all beautiful in their own skin. It took me a long time to accept how I looked on camera. I would get pictures and people would tell me they were beautiful and I’d find everything wrong with them. Eventually I started to see what was right with them. I stared for a long time until I realized that I like how big my eyes are, and the color of them. I like my wild hair and how on a windy day it blows in front of my face which makes for an artistic effect. And I like my laugh. And I especially like my laugh in pictures. I can almost hear myself and it makes me happy. These were the things about myself that I was ignoring. I think we all do that sometimes. When photographing my clients I long for those natural, whimsical, happy moments because it is when we look our best. Life is not play. We are not meant to be posed and staged and uncomfortable. We’re meant to be free, and alive and happy. And free and alive and happy are what makes a beautiful subject, in my eyes.